Everyone has been hacking up a lung for about a week now. LB has been dragging around, and Hallie woke up with no voice.
This mom had reached the end of her rope.
So, we took a quick trip to the "Doc in a Box' down the street, and 1 hour later, we have 2 diagnosis of sinus infection (Hal & Lovely) and a neat case of strep (LB).
Oh joy to my soul and goodness.
I start a new job on Friday.
I'm taking college classes.
I have 3 sick kids.
GOD, hello. Where are you right now?
Here's the deal. And you're going to think I'm a weirdo, but I don't care. Back when Laynie was so sick, I would be so deep in prayer at bedtime, that I would fall asleep praying. Inevitably, I would wake up praying, as well. And during that early morning prayer, I could hear God speak into me. It was so incredibly cool. And I have never felt so much peace as I did those days. It was when I was at my most broken and surrendered, that I heard His voice.
After she died, I heard him for awhile, then life creeped in, and I didn't hear Him anymore. I would struggle to hear Him, but I just couldn't.
Then I went out of my head, and followed His lead for me, to take on this Foster Mom role, and things are CRAZY and WILD, and I am SO out of my element, and I'm hearing His voice again.
He calms me in the morning, when I wake up sweating that I'm over my head. (Or in a menopausal sweat, they are very similar)
He calms me when I'm driving, and I think that I can't take anymore.
He loves me when I'm sitting in a doctors office, with 3 budding comedians trying to outdo each other, and I know that no matter what is happening around me, and what is going to happen......
He is there.
3 budding comedians? Does that mean Lovely has found her sense of humor in your family? What a victory.
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