The birthday of an angel

Dearest Darling,

Happy birthday.

I sit here without words (it's a shock, I know), because how many times can I say how much your life meant to me?

You were the tiniest, most mighty human I have ever, or ever will meet.

I think in the almost 30 months that you graced earth with your presence, I kissed you 500 million times.

I love you with a love that defies explanation. 

I wish every day that I had kissed you 750 million times.  When I'm very still as I lay down to sleep, I can still feel your softness in my memories.  There was nothing sweeter than you, my angel.

This year, darling....you will become a big sister.  You are going to have a little brother.  How we anticipate his arrival with so much joy...... and I find it hard to believe that I could ever love anyone as much as I loved you.

I love how your mommy loved you, and it will be such a joy to see her love your brother.....you know, my love, what an excellent mommy she is......you know...

When I start to miss you so much, I find so much comfort in all the pictures your mama took of you... how lucky we are to have all these joyous memories.....  My favorites are your bathtime pictures.   how you adored your bath.....

And when it was time to get out......you let us know you were NOT happy about it....

  But your mommy always ALWAYS knew how to fix you right up...

 And before you knew it.....all was right with your world.......

 

Smidge.......it only seems like yesterday we were doing this...

 but when I see pictures of all of us....I see how time has marched on, and it makes me miss you even more.

On your birthday and every day..... I love you.  My life is different only because of you, sweet girl.  

Through your life, you taught me everything important in my life....

and that.... has made all the difference.

 Thank you for coming here to teach us all. 

Happy birthday in heaven, my love....

Forever,  Your Lolly