Being Still

 Lacey came in from the early service this morning to visit with the boys and she was a mess.  "You're going to need kleenex"  she threw out to me.  

Oh boy.  I love crying in public.

Said no one ever.  

It's veteran's day this week and the church put together a slide show of the members that had served in the military so when my Hallie's face showed up on the screen, the tears began.  

Then Craig Groeschel brought church to church.  

To say I have been heartbroken, heart shattered, scared, angry and devastated for our nation for the last few days is just a tiny tiny way to put it into words.  Just lost and out of control.  

SO TIRED OF IT.  I've had on repeat, "God is not surprised, God is not surprised".  Still anxious.  

I could go into what Craig's word spoke to my heart here, but I want to share something else......

When Laynie almost died the first time, when she was 18 months old, and her hemoglobin got down to a 1.8, which if any of you are in healthcare, you know that is NOT enough to sustain a life.  But God sustained her and every single day that I woke up, I prayed a prayer of thanks that we had her another day.  

Not one minute of any of those days, was I concerned who was President of the USA.  Not one day.  And looking back, I don't even remember who was president.  Because our days go on, in spite of who is president.  It was important, oh so important, that we lived every single day like it was our very very last.   Living so out of control, not knowing what was going to happen with our tiny little love, it could have been so out of control and all of us could have spiraled out and gone off the rails so very very easy... but you know why we didn't?? 

Because GOD sits on the throne, and when you focus your life and your comings and goings on him, little else matters.  

Now yes, I am super concerned over what is going to happen to our freedom, and our rights and what this country is going to look like for my grandchildren and my great grandchildren.  I'm sure there are 72 million people out there worried as I am.  

But a few days ago, God called on me to be still.  And to unplug, and to just be.  

Be.   Still.   

and know that I AM GOD.  

If I hadn't been in God's pocket during those last few months of  Laynie's life, I couldn't have made it.  

He's asking me to crawl back in.  And to invite you to crawl back in with me. Because the peace that passeth all understanding is in there.  The loving your neighbor is in there, and the joy that comes in the morning is in there.  

The enemy is the only triumphant boaster in all of this.  He is reveling in the division.  He lives and breathes in the divide.  

We Have To Stop.  

It can't matter more than God's grace.  Because if we let it, the only winner in all of this chaos is Satan.

So don't be sore losers.  Don't be gloating winners.  No one benefits from this.  Forget  right/left....black/white.....socialism/freedom....... no one wins.  

NO ONE HAS WON if we all destroy each other in the process.  I love my friends I have had my whole life.  And some of them don't even speak to me any more.  

There aren't words for the amount of concern I have over the state of our beloved country.    

But as much concern as I carry inside of me, I HAVE to,  I MUST let my trust in God be more than my concern of this situation.  

He is for us, He is with us, in our pain and in our happiness.  

Please listen to this song and let the words wash over your spirit.  We WILL NOT  live in a spirit of fear.  We  will live in a spirit of Hope.  Of expectancy.  Of goodness and grace.   HE IS FOR YOU.  

LISTEN TO THIS

Because God is Good......All the Time.